To Proceed and Agree OR to not proceed and disagree

Mummies.. my husband has left me close to 7 months and has since decided to divorce me. But not yet confirm with Syariah Court. So technically, we're still legally married by status and law. These past few months have been an extreme rollercoaster ride for me. Also a reflecting one. Lost my loved one just recently. Have been waiting for job offer for quite sometime. And of course the main one, is the divorce. If you were in my shoes, would you proceed with the divorce or would you give it another shot? Cos i believe, both parties are at wrong and i also believe both parties haven't show and shower plenty of love towards each other. I do not know why am i thinking and feeling this way. We have a child together who is turning one soon. And yeah, humans are bound to make mistakes. I just don't want to be in the same position. I want to grow out of it. But i do not know what is in his mind. I do not want to initiate any conversation. We have not been having any conversation eversince. So it'll be awkward if we do now and i do not want to get hurt or receive any hurtful comments from him. #advisepls