Anyone feel like dying

[Edited] Please seek help and support. Just know that you're not alone. I once went to see a dr at Polyclinic. I can't remember for what but the dr realised I was daydreaming most of the time when I was in the room with her. She started asking personal questions. I answered her with an unconsolable cry. When I calmed down, she asked me to call my husband in. My husband saw me with red eyes & he knew something is not good. And the dr talked to him and explained that I might have anxiety issues. Turns out true. She sent me for a counselling with a psychologist. It's been 6 yrs. I felt much more better than I was before I met her plus the medicines that was prescribed to me. But it's been about 4 yrs I'm medicine free. You should seek help. Sometimes our own spouse does not even support us because they have no idea what we're going through personally in our mind. Also my sincere advice, get your own place. Never a good idea to stay with own parents if they're toxic or PILs when you're married. I have toxic parents too. I got married, moved out after they chased both me & my hub out, crashed for 6 mths at ILs place till we got our house key (my MIL was urgh!), got our own place to call home and that was the best decision I've made!