Feeling so alone during pregnancy. Constantly thinking about aborting.
hi mommies. I’m currently 17 turning 18 and my baby is 12 weeks old. the baby was not planned and we found out the worst way possible. I only found out when we broke up hence it’s so complicated. our families let us be the one making the decision. he ( my current partner) didn’t say what he felt but it was so obvious he didn’t want the child nor get back together. I myself couldn’t make the decision till we heard the baby’s heartbeat. But now I’m having my doubts. I’ve never felt more insecure and alone before. This whole relationship feels so fake and disgusting. He would not put in effort to take me out on dates or even going out to eat with my family. He wouldn’t even answer a video call from me. What else wouldn’t he do when the child comes. Knowing that he didn’t even want the child, my biggest fear is him neglecting our child. He is so stingy with money to the point where I’m paying for everything. Every meal. I can’t even pull myself up to go work because of the fatigueness I’m feeling everyday. He is much older and jobless. Together for close to a year and we never once sleep at my house. His plan for the future is “I’m gonna keep $200 every month for the baby” and I can think about is , your expected salary is $2000 and you’re only keeping $200 for our child? I don’t feel the love nor trust in this relationship. I really don’t know what else to do. I know sooner or later he’ll definitely have someone else. Would I be a terrible person if I chose to abort. I love kids but I feel like this is not the right guy for me and my baby. Everyday I’ve been crying like shit. Crying every minute possible.He is not the slightest bit happy bout signing ROM. He acts as if it’s a burden to him. And everyday I feel like I’m a burden to him. pls advice I feel so lost and alone. #newmom #1sttimemom