Admit to cheating

Question

My husband recently admitted he went for prostitution MULTIPLE times on the reason that I dont give him sex as often as he wishes I would (we still do it but not often). he knows this would be the last draw for our marriage, he even went to solicit one after our counselling. I love him, i gave him a lot of chances I keep tell myself hes still young, were still young. but he constantly betrays my trust, breaks my heart. I want to cut him out of my life but I cant, I keep replaying it in my head and I keep crying. my heart really hurts. Ive moved back to my parents place with my kid. yesterday she just told me she misses papa.. I miss him too but I know myself. I cannot get over this, its unacceptable. i know I shouldnt give him ANOTHER chance, who can ever accept their husband soliciting prostitutes on multiple occasions??? I feel so dirty and disgusted as it feels like he touched someone else and touched me. Ive to be strong for my kid cos idw to lose care n control when the time comes. but I feel so lost. I never expected this situation to fall upon myself, I dont know what to do. I intend to go counseling for myself to get over this. Im just worried for my kid to grow up with a father, even tho when were staying together he doesnt bother with my kid too. he doesnt treat me nice, theres really no reason to stay. But my heart still yearn for him :( why am I so foolish? I saw all the red flags but I didnt do anything I continue to let him disrespect me and hurt me...

Vô danh · Answer

My heart breaks for you. Big hugs to you! It's normal to feel that way what more you already have a kid with him. Takes some time to move on but always remind yourself of what he have done. He does not deserve you. You have give him many chances already. Cheating is his choice. A leopard won't change it's spot. I was a divorcee with a child. I told myself this was it. I will never turn my back. And I never did. Fast forward, I'm happily married to my now husband and step father of my child. Move on. Divorce is painful. But move on. Keep moving forward. Your future is way better than now. You don't deserve a cheating husband. Not you, not other wives.