Uy mama, ang hirap talaga ng feeling na yan, four months postpartum kang may pressure from all sides, I totally get it. One of my mum friends felt exactly the same guilt, parang damned if you do, damned if you don't, and honestly iniwan namin siya na mag-vent kasi the pressure you're describing sounds like it's more than just the work decision, it's living with your partner's family, their expectations, and your own fear of missing out. Can I be real with you? The worthless feeling and how you're describing everything sounds heavy, and I think it might be good to talk to your OB or a counselor about postpartum adjustment and maybe depression, kasi four months in, that's not uncommon but it also needs proper support, not just advice lang. About the work thing: there's no "right" decision here that'll make everyone happy, so you gotta decide what's best for YOU and baby first, hindi para sa lolo or sa mama ng partner mo. Maybe giving yourself more time to settle postpartum before jumping into a new job might help you think clearer? Sending you a tight hug, mommy, you're doing way more than you think.