Kept the news hidden till baby was born up to 3 months old and counting now and yup still not ready to tell. Well eventually some immediate family members found out themselves and some others still doesn’t know. It does not matter if some were disappointed because my mental, emotional and physical health was on the line.
I wanted to have a private life ever since marriage but my first pregnancy didn’t go as what i have planned. I was overwhelmed by all the attention and always gave in to everyone’s request with the baby. Had too many family visits and family outings. I’m like fine i get it, it’s first grandchild for both sides and the excitement was really hitting off the roof. So i became very passive and had a hard time saying no to them. I kept pretending and attending to everyone around me which is slowly making me feel depressed. I also have social anxiety so it doesn’t do justice in the depressing situation i am in. My mental health has turn for the worse which is why i chose to keep my second pregnancy and the baby news quiet.
I feel so much at ease and peaceful now so it’s honestly a great feeling to follow what you want for yourself. It’s more encouraging when your partner listens, understands and supports you. Groove in with the peace for as long as you want because it’s not always about pleasing everyone around, sometimes you have to be selfish. This is my experience so you can take this as a guidance from the opinion you have and the decision you want to make. Take care always.
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