Hi mama,
There are specialists who can help - specifically in PPD.
Unfortunately, I would suggest speaking with someone and perhaps, with no obligations, get assessed before any real sessions or treatment to be on the safe side.
Sweeping mental health under the carpet is not something I’d advise - especially as your baby and family both need you.
Take care mama - and if you’re willing to try out my suggestion, you can email me: doulahjamz@gmail.com and I can send some names over to you.
No obligations, no referral fees from or to me :)