Just ranting.

Only a sahm for 2 years plus, i feel lonely and jealous sometimes when husband spends a lot of his time out with his friends while I'm 'stuck' at home with the kids 24/7. I feel guilty for feeling 'stuck at home w the children' and wanting some time for myself. ☹️ Why do mothers have to sacrifice our freedom(also our bodies and literally everything) while the fathers get to do whatever they want guilt free.... Really hard to find a dedicated father/husband who's willing to spend more time w family/wife rather than choosing to always go out w friends. Totally understand that he needs time to unwind after work but its like he gets to go out every week sometimes twice a week while myself only once or twice every other month. Just getting to shower alone feels like such a luxury......... I feel like I'm always complaining but all my complaints always fall on deaf ears. He says ok but still insists going out just a 'short' while but comes home late n is too tired the next day to spend time w the children or me even. Pls tell me im not alone feeling this way. Sighhhh.