Need some encouragement

it is not going to be easy whether finding a job or putting your child in ifc so you can work full time. my 2 children went to infant care ard 3months and 2.5months old. the first time was the hardest. im so full of mum guilt to think that i'd miss seeing their first flip, first crawl, first walk because it happen in school. however to be honest, there are so many much more first time that we can experience with our children together. it's which side of the story we choose to look at. so on off work hours, i make sure we spend lots of quality bonding time together. eg bedtime stories, snuggling together, talking nonsense together, playtime, outings etc... ive seen an aunt who stay home so many years such that now the boys are all in tertiary but it would be quite harder for her to step back into working society after so many years. if your hubby is able to give full financial support, i dont see why you cant continue to be a sahm. or if you'd like to, maybe even explore part time work or home base business so you get to work and socialise while having flexibility to take care of your children

Can try look for receptionist or admin job? Try like maybe dentist assistant or similar kind? It would be nice to go thru your child’s milestone esp when they’re so young but if your situation and finances doesn’t allow then i guess you have to make a decision? Work part time maybe? For me, i teach in pre sch and when i went back to work i feel guilty - i spent 8-5 with other kids but not my own child. But i also need money right, want buy my own things and give the best to my child. Sometimes, cannot have best of both worlds.

find a company that is pro family- lots of annual leaves (21 at least) childcare leaves, etc and 9 to 5pm. think of it this way- you will be a better person to teach your children about the outside world when they ask you about it. Being financially independent can bring lots of happiness too, like bringing your kids to travel. Work doesn't have to be permanent either, you can choose to take short breaks or change to part time role when you feel like spending more time.

I understand your concerns about your children. Think about it this way, wouldn’t it be better for your child to learn how to be independent earlier? Yes jobs are hard to find, but there is will there is a way. Take your time and don’t give yourself too much stress.

You can try to start with some part time job first to get use to it. Jia you! :)

Try looking for 9am-5pm jobs like receptionist or hr assistant.

hoping to return too 🙏