Apologies for rant...

I'm feeling very irritated with baby as I don't know what she wants and she keeps crying at everything. At times I feel like throwing her away. I feel shocked at my own thoughts I have helper to help me however sometimes she also unable to handle baby and then it's back to me. I'm not sure if it is because I'm on menses or anxiety as I'm going back to work and all or is this a symptom of post partum depression. I only have such thoughts recently. So sorry for the rant. #firstbaby