Sigh....

like what 👇 said, seek help. i also almost got PPD with my past depression history. but i didnt open up to my husband. we fought alot bc he didnt help or wake up even when baby's crying. i cried so much during my confinement bc im doing everything alone. but i have some knowledge abt PPD. i tried to be calm first before attending to baby. while feeding and baby still crying inconsolably, and you losing your anger or whatever, put baby down for max 30secs and cool down and take a very deep breath , while patting baby (don't just ignore baby crying). when baby sleeping, do whatever you want. nap, cook, netflix. you deserve me time too. try to put sleep schedule in place. since baby still young, dont be so strict on it. be flexible as they are still adapting. After a while, they will get use to the schedule and you can rest better. all these helps me to cope from falling into PPD, bc getting a specialist for myself is high risk getting medicated and im against it.. but you can seek help from specialist and if theres other better options. as for your husband, if he thinks you hold baby wrongly, then ask him to feed baby instead. why can't he help then aiyo. also check if baby is colic anot for interventions. that also tires to alot.