Rasa kehilangam identiti

I don't know what's wrong with me. Aku perasan sejak anak dah 2 ni perasaan aku lain sgt. First is how I treat animals. Dulu kemain sayang dgn family cat, dukung, tido skali. Tp skrg pandang je pastu halau. Cam tak suka n dgn haiwan lain pun tak suka gak. Idkwhyyy. Pastu kalau dulu suka workout, dance, and make videos. Cam kluar2 and edit video just for fun. Tapi skrg nothing excites me anymore. Kalau kluar pun tak fun. Tgk phone pun tk rasa fun like other people. Kadang jealous org lain boleh tgk Netflix, tiktok or YouTube dkt phone, oh how I miss those feelings. Kenapa kalau aku tgk phone pun tk rasa fun? Cm hilang identity je skrg ni. Idk how to describe it but it feels lonely. Siapa tau Kenapa aku rasa cmni eh??