How does it feel to be a fat kid in your childhood?

well...obese or skinny....it's both a stress we put on kids. I was not initially fat, but a very close cousin of mine was very insecure about me though she was very pretty. so she would feed me ice creams and chocolate esp while we stayed at my aunt's place. this aunt used to force feed me. at that time there was not much emphasis put on what to eat or not etc... I never realized and put on weight very fast. that weight stayed always till now. after each pregnancy I put on more. hence it was very difficult then and now too. the Problm is food is viewed as a comfort always or as a weapon for emotional blackmail....like my aunt did. instead of giving what a child can practically eat, my aunt would put a lot on my plate and make me swear that I'll eat it all. I would cry while I'm eating but that didn't deter her or my cousin. today as I look at those days in hindsight I only feel hurt that sometimes your own can be so conniving and evil. anyway... people calling names, providing certain names that stick to u for life, in school or after marriage, or friends who take snaps with u only to see how slim they are compRed to me...that's the pain people go through which only they can understand. when people say I understand how u feel, do they really understand? if u suffer from a disease or lose someone in death or face marital problems...some quickly say I understand how u feel.... but that's such a wrong statement to make...no one provides a comfort or a shoulder. but they all say I understand...how can they if they can't empathize... if each understand then stop making funny videos of obese people being clumsy, or cracking jokes, or poking fun, calling names, or branding... if a slim person walks by, that person is immediately looked at as healthy and very health conscious. if a thin person walks by, then many give suggestions that u eat this and that and put on a little weight. but if a fat one goes by then tons of things happen... everything from fliers that advertise about weight loss, to shakes for weight loss to gyms and Zumba to surgery to what diseases they will get. but no one just walks up and says u look beautiful... no one says that color looks good on you no one says u make the dress look beautiful.. no one says it's normal... on my part I ensure that at least my words don't harm and hurt other...how I'm treated is no longer my concern.