Pregnancy envy

Had 2 miscarriages within 6 months. Even though my husband and close friends stayed by my side, I still feel very lonely at times. It feels like a dark hole that just keep sucking me in. I know some use work to distract themselves but I am the opposite - I have no motivation to work at all and just want to quit and take a break 😅 Pardon my random rant…but I have a gf who always complain about her pregnancy (her 2nd now). From morning sickness to food aversion to heartburn to the ‘ever growing bump that’s getting in her way’. Seriously I 🙄🙄🙄 everytime I see her posts, I got really triggered until I had to mute her account. I really hope she will realise how blessed she is and be more considerate to other ttc ladies. I feel like a crazy selfish bitch sometimes😪 but honestly I can no longer treat her/this friendship like how things used to be anymore. Any advice to help me overcome this🥺