Depression And Trauma Throughout Pregnancy

Ever since I know about my pregnancy as early as 5 weeks, major trauma event and decision happens along the way till today at 33 weeks. As much as I know being stressed and depressed will affect the growth and health of the baby. But things and event are out of control. Families are negative on my decision to marry my current husband who had cheated on me and giving me std and risk of hiv knowing that I'm pregnant at 8 weeks. The thought of abortion was pretty high and some close friends strongly encouraged me to. I struggle on making the decision till the abortion day I decided to tell the doctor that I will not proceed with the abortion. I choose to forgive and move on together with my current husband. Getting Married and making things simple as much as we can, but parents demand photoshoot, simple dinner and 30k dowry. This journey have more down than ever in my life and dramatic events kept on coming. I'm very worried that the impact of all the events affecting my baby and I only manage to get help at 28 week in nuh. As much as I need to be happy, calm and stress free but there is so much I can do. It comes to a point I'm really depressed and even having suicidal thoughts.

Vô danh

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jiayou mommy!!! i also have std given by my husband.. do you mind sharing with me your pregnancy journey and if the baby is okay due to the std? im also very stressed. afraid may get depression as im constantly worried that somethinf will happen to my baby. im not even past first trimester yet :( will rly hope to hear from u! n jiayou! baby will be out soon, everything will be ok

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Hi dear, I'm so sorry to hear that! Have you get yourself checked? I got gonorrhea and faintly positive on Hiv when I'm at my 8 weeks. Luckily I done all the test at dsc and it was cleared and treated. Hiv turns out to be negative as well. I'm constantly worried about both baby and my relationship with my husband. The constant feeling of him cheating again and having unprotected sex with others and passing it to baby and me. It's really hard to not think about and be in Zen mood for 24/7 however what I try to do is to keep myself busy and talk to someone netrual. You can search for helpline online to just talk to someone about it and it really feels better. I'm at my 34 weeks already and one thing I were to advise others is emotions and stress really does affect baby and I'm very guilty about it. Try eating food that makes you happy as well, like for me is chocolate and ice-cream. (in moderate of cos) Let me know if there's anything you would like me to share with you :)

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