Depression And Trauma Throughout Pregnancy

Ever since I know about my pregnancy as early as 5 weeks, major trauma event and decision happens along the way till today at 33 weeks. As much as I know being stressed and depressed will affect the growth and health of the baby. But things and event are out of control. Families are negative on my decision to marry my current husband who had cheated on me and giving me std and risk of hiv knowing that I'm pregnant at 8 weeks. The thought of abortion was pretty high and some close friends strongly encouraged me to. I struggle on making the decision till the abortion day I decided to tell the doctor that I will not proceed with the abortion. I choose to forgive and move on together with my current husband. Getting Married and making things simple as much as we can, but parents demand photoshoot, simple dinner and 30k dowry. This journey have more down than ever in my life and dramatic events kept on coming. I'm very worried that the impact of all the events affecting my baby and I only manage to get help at 28 week in nuh. As much as I need to be happy, calm and stress free but there is so much I can do. It comes to a point I'm really depressed and even having suicidal thoughts.