Do you regret having children? Do u wish you had gone for an abortion instead?

Im not hypocrite but yes. At my age i really want a baby but when we found out that im pregnant im skeptical and sad as in! If there is post partum syndrome before giving birth i must say that i am dealing with it for almost nine months. But today everytime i look at her I must say i wasted my time on being sad in the past nine months.