Mommy, first thing: please reach out to your OB right away about how you're feeling, the crying, the dark thoughts, all of it. This is real and treatable, and you deserve support. Hindi ka nag-iisa dito, and your baby needs you well, ha? Listen, maraming ka momshies namin na nakaramdam ng ganitong heavy emotions during pregnancy, lalo na with stress outside, and seryoso, it's not your fault. Your baby boy is strong, and ang stress mo ay hindi directly "damaging" him the way you're scared of, pero ikaw kailangan ng help para maging okay. The fact na okay pa rin siya sa check-ups ay good sign talaga. Mag-start ulit ng vitamins mo (especially ngayon na 34 weeks na), and please don't carry this alone, OB, counselor, or kahit trusted friend or family. Your babies need their mama healthy and here, not perfect or stress-free (impossible yan anyway!). You're doing your best sa sobrang hirap na situation, and that's enough. Yung pangalan pa lang, it'll come when the time is right, no rush, mommy.