Aihh sayang, first of all, what you're feeling is SO normal, especially with the 3rd pregnancy, morning sickness, and being away from home with unfamiliar weather and the in-laws juggling everything. A few of us mums who've had multiple C-sections honestly feel the same waves of doubt and overwhelm, especially when life is this complicated. You're not alone in this feeling, pregnancy hormones plus real stress plus being so far from your support system is a lot . Have you thought about talking to someone, maybe a counsellor or even just your doctor about how you're coping emotionally? Sometimes just saying it out loud to someone trained helps. For now, focus on small things: rest when you can, tell your husband exactly what you need (even if he's working far away), and be gentle with yourself. Your body has done this twice already, you're stronger than you think. The kids will adapt, and this season will pass. Rooting for you!