Holding It All In

Some days I really feel like I’m just barely holding it together. Life is testing me in so many ways.. physically, emotionally, mentally. I’m pregnant, I’m exhausted, I’m overwhelmed… and yet I keep pretending I’m okay. People see me smiling, hear me laughing, but they don’t know I cry when I’m alone. I cry myself to sleep some nights. Ang bigat-bigat na ng lahat, pero kailangan ko pa ring magpakatatag para sa baby ko. And honestly? I feel like I’m about to break. Ang daming iniisip, ang daming kailangang asikasuhin, ang daming responsibilities. Pero wala akong masabihan. Wala akong mapaglabasan ng lahat ng nararamdaman ko. I’m scared people won’t understand.. or worse, judge me for how I feel. So for now, I’ll just cry when no one’s looking.. and keep fighting quietly. One day at a time. For this little life growing inside me.