Ate, I'm so sorry, that's heartbreaking, and ang sakit talaga ng ganyan, lalo na twice na. Please see your OB right away if you haven't yet, para ma-check kung okay ka and what happened. Your emotional and physical health matters so much right now. A few of us moms have gone through losses like this, and honestly, the pain is real, don't rush yourself to "move on." Take time to grieve, kahit ang iba say "next time na lang", walang "next time" sa pain mo ngayon. Lean on your partner, your mum friends, or kahit sa community dito kung kailangan mo mag-talk. You're not alone in this, and you will get through it.