Sayang, this is serious, what you're describing sounds like emotional abuse, and being pregnant while going through this is really harmful for you and baby. Please talk to someone you trust, your mum, a counsellor, or call a helpline like All Women's Action (AWA) or Talian Kasih, they can help you think through this safely. Your health and mental wellbeing matter so much right now, especially at 5 weeks. You deserve support, not mistreatment. It's okay to protect yourself and your baby by keeping this pregnancy private if it keeps you safe, that's wise, not wrong. But please don't carry this alone.