Aihhh mama, tu memang payah habis, cacar air pada breast area masa menyusui adalah salah satu hal paling uncomfortable yang boleh terjadi, plus luka dari bersalin yang still healing lagi, memang penat mental dan fizik. A few of my mum friends had chickenpox postpartum juga and they all said the same thing, rasa macam dunia runtuh masa tu because you're already exhausted from recovery, then this pulak; tapi serius, you're doing amazing sebab anak you safe dan anda masih tahankan sementara healing. Since the scars on your left breast are getting bigger and redder, and you're in pain especially while feeding, please check in with your gynae or doctor soon lah, bukan seram, tapi just to make sure luka tu healing properly and no secondary infection happening, especially with the moisture from feeding; at least doktor boleh give you proper wound care advice and maybe pain management yang safe kalau you're still breastfeeding. Jangan tahan sendiri ye, you deserve proper support, both physically and emotionally.