Sayang, first thing, follow up dengan Dr gynec untuk procedure cuci macam yang dia schedule, ok? That's the most important thing right now untuk health mu. Honestly, I know a few mums who went through similar heartbreak, dan it's such a painful thing to go through especially first pregnancy. The grief is real, and it's ok to feel whatever you're feeling right now. Tapi please focus on taking care of yourself physically dulu, make sure the procedure goes smoothly and you rest properly after. After this is done, you can talk to your doctor about trying again and what to do differently next time. Many of the mums I know who went through this eventually had healthy pregnancies after. Jangan give up hope, tapi right now, just take it one step at a time and be kind to yourself, ya?