Aww mama, ang hirap talaga ng feeling na yan, nabigla ka, may commitment na kayo, pero ang expectations mo sa sarili mo before all this happened ay parang nawala na, di ba? Honestly, a lot of us moms went through something similar, at nakita ko kung gaano kasakit yung guilt at sadness together, lalo na kung may comments pa mula sa partner na nakakasama ng loob even if joke lang. Pero mommy, hindi ka nag-iisa dito, maraming babae ang naging pregnant before marriage, at marami ring nagpa-wedding at nag-thrive as moms at partners after. Ang bata mo ay blessing talaga, at hindi mo sinisisi yun (which is beautiful), so give yourself the same grace na binibigay mo sa kanya. Maybe it would help to talk to someone you trust, a close friend, family member, or even a counselor, para ma-process mo yung grief na parang nararamdaman mo about the life you thought you'd have versus what's actually happening now. Kahit seryoso naman ang pinag-uusapan natin, I really think it'd be good to check in with a doctor or mental health professional about how heavy ang depression mo, kasi postpartum blues and pregnancy hormones are real, and you deserve proper support, hindi lang reassurance from us moms online. You're gonna be okay, and your baby is lucky to have you.