37 weeks and dilemma

Hi mummies I am FTM I am not sure if i want to go for natural delivery or c sect, my constipation today i think made small tear near my anus it’s sting when kena water. If a hard poop can make the skin tear easily then isnt the childbirth will make me tear even more to the point reach 3rd or 4th degree? 🙁 I know i have to decide asap but c sect ppl say recovery is slower😵‍💫