Mama, please please reach out to your OB or go to your health center soon, what you're describing sounds like you're carrying a really heavy load, and that deserves proper support from someone who can really help you figure this out. Hindi ka nag-iisa dito, and it's okay to ask for help.
A month postpartum is still very early, lalo na after a CS you didn't plan for, that emotional wound you mentioned is real and valid. A few of us moms have gone through similar feelings, at honestly, talking to a doctor or even a counselor made a difference. The stress from the move, juggling two babies, work pressure, and breastfeeding worries? Yon ay maraming-maraming bagay na sabay-sabay, and your body and mind are probably screaming for a break.
Your milk supply, the emotions, the overwhelm, these could all be connected to stress, recovery, and how much you're trying to do all at once. But you need a professional to help you sort through it properly, hindi lang you guessing. You deserve that clarity and support, mama. Reach out to your doctor this week, okay? You're not in denial; you're just exhausted and need someone in your corner.