I'm pregnant and I dont know what to feel

married po ako with 1 toddler (1yr8mos girl) and recently missed a few days of my supposed period. Nag pt ako kanina and nagpositive. hindi ko alam nararamdaman ko. im happy kasi baby ulit. Pero more of hindi happy kasi hindi pa ako prepared ulit. Ang dami ko pang issue sa sarili ko (anxiety and insecurities etc), family and financial issues....pls dont judge. this is me. 😢😢 this are my feelings...😢 sinabi ko sa hubby ko, masaya sya. Kaso hindi nya maintindihan yung side ko bakit ayoko pa ulit. Emotionally, mentally, financially. Hindi pa din ako ready. I have a mild heart condition... sana maintindihan nya na hindi madali para sakin magbuntis, pwedeng life threatening. Saka, hindi ko pa masyado naeenjoy yung toddler ko....🥺 bago palang kami nagaaral magsalita.... at saka isa pa.... yung pandemic ngayon...😥 nakakatakot. Wala pang nakakaalam sa families namin. kami palang dalawa. Masakit para sakin sabihin na hindi ako masayang malaman na positive yung pt ko.... pero sa sitwasyon namin na medyo financially struggling...😥😢 wrong timing.🥺😢 Need your virtual hugs. I need enlightenment.😢😭 #NotAllHusbandsUnderstandsMomStruggles #advicepls #pleasehelp