Sayang, I'm so sorry about your loss last year, that must be heavy in your heart. Please go to the clinic soon, okay? Especially after a C-section, doctor needs to check you properly, bukan untuk scare you, but to make sure everything is healing well and to understand what's happening with your cycle. Takut is normal, but dokter ada to help, bukan judge. A few of my mum friends who got pregnant soon after surgery were actually okay, but each body is different, that's why you need your own doctor's eyes on this. You're brave for trying again. Take that first step and book the appointment, ya?