Feeling lonely

No one knows why I am crying in the night everyday :( even not to me .. missing parents badly .. but I am also a mother .. y a mom can’t miss parents :( every time I feel low can’t control my self .. this emotion is always caused by hubby .. weather it’s directly or indirectly it hurts to the heart .. y need a marriage n fly away from all our emotions n family .. #pleasehelp I really feeling lost n in pregnant for my 2bee 🥺 .. l don’t like to show my tears to anyone hence crying alone n makes happy face in front of everyone.. but how long I makeup ... my self from the sorrows ..