Mama, my heart is breaking for you. Please go back to your doctor right away or go to the emergency room, you need to be checked and supported by medical professionals right now, hindi lang para sa baby kundi para sa iyo rin. What you're feeling is so real and so valid, at kailangan mo ng proper care and guidance.
I'm so, so sorry. Tatlong beses, alam ko ang ganitong sakit, isa sa mga kaibigan ko ay dumaan din, at walang salita ang enough. But please don't carry this alone, your doctor, your family, at maybe a counselor can help you through this. You deserve compassion and medical support right now.
Go to your doctor or hospital today, okay? You matter, and so does your healing.