Mama, I hear you, and what you're feeling is so real at kapakali ang postpartum period, but please, please talk to a doctor or call a mental health hotline today, okay? Thoughts about taking your own life need immediate care, hindi ka mag-iisa dito.
A few of us mums have been through rough patches with our partners after birth, and it's heartbreaking, but depression after having a baby is something a professional can actually help with, it changes how you see everything, including your marriage. You deserve support, whether from a counselor, therapist, or both, kaya please reach out. Your babies need their mama healthy and happy, and you're not selfish for needing help, that's the strongest thing you can do right now.
You're not alone in this, I promise.