Nobody is giving the right to judge what kind of person you are, nor good or bad a Mother you are except your child. From young, I have been told by my own family how stupid or useless I am. After I get married, I have been accused by my in-laws for every small simple things. I used to doubt myself and think I should just end my “useless” and “unworthy” life since my own family hate or think so lowly about me so much. It was so bad that my mil tell me it is “alright” for my fil to touch me inappropriately which cause me to have depression.
Until I have my children, to them I am their supermom and whole world. After being a mom, I realised there is people out there who just don’t appreciate or value other life, in their eye they are the most important people in the whole universe. Hence, respect does not appear in their dictionary. Understand this “problem”, I start to train my own mind to be strong for my kids and myself. It is hard but I did step by step to regain the right of living the life I want. Mommy, I know it is hard not to have a man by your side to support you when your kid is still young, it is sad to being called names and being beaten for no reason. It alright to feel those feeling but after a big cry, you got to tell yourself you are bigger than what other think about you and stand high for your kid. What don’t kill us will only make us stronger. It is really hard but every baby steps will bring us one step closer to our better life. Let work together!
Mannhy Sim