I will be having my termination as scheduled very soon. Mixed feelings about keeping the child because I don't know if I could handle both kids with huge age gap and their needs are very different. Maybe I wasn't a mummy calibre in the first place since so many mummies can do it without help with more than 1 and yet I am struggling already, wondering if I will turned into a depressed mummy if I continue the pregnancy.

No one is born a mother until a child is born. No one has the perfect way to teach or guide a child. Is your family helping you? Mother or in laws? Your husband helping? How wide is their age gap? Could the elder one care for the younger one? We used to struggle with one too, second came along and we struggled but eventually we are used to it. There are some things we close our eyes to. The house is always in a mess with toys, occasionally neat, after I packed away their stuff when they sleep. Mop the floor only once a week or even fortnightly. Accumulate n wash our clothes 3 times a week. Guilty of nagging husband to tidy up the house or watch over them, but hey, it's a team work. Not one person's job. Of coz every families functions differently. You might want to speak to a counselor or someone who can advise you better?