I'm so deeply sorry you're going through this. Please do reach out to your doctor or go to A&E soon if you haven't already, just to make sure you're physically okay, yes.
What you're feeling right now is so real and so valid. There's no rush to "heal" or have it all figured out. Give yourself time and grace. Many of us here have walked this painful road too, and we see you. Lean on people around you if you can, whether that's family, your husband, a counsellor, or even just other mamas in communities like this one who truly understand.
You will find your way through this, one day at a time.
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