Mama, please reach out to a doctor or mental health professional right away, this is really important and you don't have to go through this alone.
Postpartum depression is real and treatable, at hindi ka nag-iisa dito. A few of us mums have been through similar struggles, at honestly, getting professional help made a huge difference. Try contacting your OB-GYN or local health center, they can refer you to a psychiatrist or counselor. You can also look into the Philippine Mental Health Association or text/call local crisis hotlines for immediate support if you need someone to talk to. Your relationships, your baby, and you deserve this care, mama. Kaya mo ito.