stress

So i just found someone else tali bra inside my partner's luggage after my mother use it and it does not belong to my mother.i ask him and he say noone used it except me and my mom who recently used the luggage.tali bra warna hitam and my mother dont have tali bra yang boleh detach. Tambah lagi,hari ni i nampak my anak buah 6years old yang tunjuk signs of depression.katanya nak bunuh diri la..itu ini la...but he did kena abuse by his father these past few weeks sebab tak pandai belajar..tak pandai mengeja..tak pandai membaca...after he kena pukul he can read and write..then bila i cerita balik wat happen to me that my father refuse to pay for my university(that time he belum kahwin baru) he say how he dont have money..but now he already kahwin baru after so many years curang with my mother boleh pulak dia beli itu ini for the new anak and current wife..then my mother pulak kata dont remember the past..bla bla bla...sebab dia pun 2kali5 sama buat saya macam anak yatim! Dia selalu tak adil..melebihkan abg saya.. sedih... rasa nak bunuh diri tu ada tapi saya kesian pulak tengok my son..dia baru 5bulan...aku seorang saja dia ada..saya luahkan disini bukan nak minta kesian atau attention seeker..i need to get it out before i lose my mind and do something unexpected...