Struggles

I feel like I'm getting worse everyday. ? Been too impatient. Been too mad. Been too harsh. Been thinking of ways how to change my approach to every single stressful thing I encounter. But I find it really hard. Hard to calm down. Hard to keep my voice down. Hard to keep my thoughts and those harmful words to myself. I'm trying. I really am. My mind is struggling right now. More than how it had struggled a few years before. I promised myself to never go back to how my mind was before. But look where I am now. So close to turning around and walking back to where I've been.