Ay, mama, I'm so sorry about your losses, that's so much to carry, and honestly, just getting through each day is already progress, even if it doesn't feel like it. Grief doesn't follow a timeline, so please be gentle with yourself; sometimes the goal isn't to move forward leaps and bounds, but just to show up and breathe, and that's enough. Maybe try setting smaller, kinder goals for now, something that honors your mama and fiancé's memory rather than chasing what you think you "should" be doing, kasi healing and moving forward don't always look the way we imagined. You're stronger than you know, and the fact na you're here asking this means you're already thinking about your future, which is beautiful. Sending you so much love, mama, you've got this, one small step at a time.