Sayang, i'm so proud of you untuk berani seek help, that takes real courage, especially when pregnant. Alhamdulillah you found a good doctor KK dan psychiatrist yang understand you. It sounds like you're carrying so much, the pregnancy hormones, the stress from hubby, the money worries, semua campur jadi lah. What you're feeling is very real, and it's NOT your fault. Medication + therapy together is the right path, exactly like your doctor said. The meds will stabilise you now, therapy will teach you tools to handle emotions long-term. About hubby, i know a few of us in similar situations, and honestly, sometimes our partners just don't know how to support us, especially when we're vulnerable. You're doing what you can by taking care of yourself dulu. Your kids need you well more than anything else. Keep talking to your psychiatrist honestly about EVERYTHING, the marriage stress, the guilt, all of it. And please, keep praying and being gentle with yourself. You're doing really well, mama. Take it one day at a time. Doakan you and baby selamat. You deserve peace.