I am around 10 weeks pregnant. Ever since we (my husband and I) know I am pregnant, he was happy at first. Then he started to question why there's so much thing I'm sensitive to. I thought it's a first time thing and we both need time to get used to it. Until..he started to force me to have sex with him even when I was sick and begged him to let me rest...and it was the most painful thing I ever felt in my life... I can't rest anymore... Not until I cooked his meal, and if I ever feel too sick and nauseous of it, he will scold me. This ramadhan, I had days when I was simply too tired to wake up for sahur.. I had terrible morning sickness that last all day, not to mention I still do the house chores alone. My husband completely depends on me to wake him up for sahur so if I missed one, I think you can guess what happened to me. He never hits me, but his meal is far more important than mine, and it doesn't matter whatever happened to me. I went to the doctor with him for checkup and the doctor said i have some problem with my pregnancy and I need a proper bed rest. On the way back home, he said to me it is impossible for me to have a bed rest. "How can you cook if you need to bed rest?" Is what he said to me. Forget bed rest, I can't even sit down at home. I'm worried, for my baby the most. At this rate, I feel scared of letting him be the father of my kids. The forced sex, is what I call rape.. i feel raped.. and every inch of my body hates it.. it hurts so much and i suffered from the after effects... And he doesn't care about it, and will force me again the next day, and the next day... I seriously considering going to the police, not for report, but to let me cross the state so i can go back home to my mom for some protection. I don't know what to do other than that... This is ky first pregnancy, and our marriage is not even 1 year old yet. But i don't know this man... I don't know that to do.. i need help#firstbaby #pleasehelp
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