Yesha thats a sensitive topic specially for your family, well its all about acceptance , the child has nothing to do with the problem that you and your husband had in the past . Maybe the best thing to do is to finally accept the child as part of your family now , show to him the love of a mother because that may help him or her feel that she or he is accepted . Its the power of love that will help you heal and accept what ever heartbreak you have in the past and totally moved on in the present.