My husband recently admitted he went for prostitution MULTIPLE times on the reason that I don't give him sex as often as he wishes I would (we still do it but not often).
he knows this would be the last draw for our marriage, he even went to solicit one after our counselling.
I love him, i gave him a lot of chances I keep tell myself he's still young, we're still young. but he constantly betrays my trust, breaks my heart.
I want to cut him out of my life but I can't, I keep replaying it in my head and I keep crying. my heart really hurts. I've moved back to my parents place with my kid. yesterday she just told me she misses papa.. I miss him too but I know myself. I cannot get over this, it's unacceptable.
i know I shouldn't give him ANOTHER chance, who can ever accept their husband soliciting prostitutes on multiple occasions???
I feel so dirty and disgusted as it feels like he touched someone else and touched me.
I've to be strong for my kid cos idw to lose care n control when the time comes. but I feel so lost. I never expected this situation to fall upon myself, I don't know what to do.
I intend to go counseling for myself to get over this. I'm just worried for my kid to grow up with a father, even tho when we're staying together he doesn't bother with my kid too. he doesn't treat me nice, there's really no reason to stay. But my heart still yearn for him :( why am I so foolish? I saw all the red flags but I didn't do anything I continue to let him disrespect me and hurt me...