How pathetic am I when I get the loads of affection I ask hubby for happens only in my dream? *sigh*

I did but to no avail. Probably 'cause I pointed out that he was cheating on me with a mutual friend. Not physically though but cheating just the same 'cause he was spending more time chatting with her than talking to me in person. I tried to cope by not expecting too much to get affection. I don't give much affection anymore as well because I do not want to be disappointed. Eventually, I was able to cope with the lack of the "love languange".