HONESTY HOUR. Hindi ko akalain na ang pagiging SABAY na full-time working mom & a full-time stay-at-home mom ay super exhausting emotionally and mentally (siyempre pati physically).
Meron parang constant tug-of-war between two guilts: Yung mom-guilt na nakikita mong umiiyak si baby t'wing nakikita kang nag-la-laptop, at yung employee-guilt of being with your baby during work hours. Hindi mo na alam paanong hatiin yung katawan mo sa Working Self and Mommy/Wife Self, minsan sobrang overstimulated mo na, natutulala ka na lang at parang naiiyak.
(And no, giving up on work isn't an option. My husband and I need both our incomes to build a life that's comfortable and best for our family. and also, I need to work for my sanity and self-fulfilment. And I do love working and I do love what I do for my company)
From the outside, people could think I'm fine and living THE life. But inside, I feel pulled apart in different sides, wanting to be in two places at the same time, wanting to give 100% for both at the same time---I go through phases when I tell myself 'This is impossible' but then I'd do it anyway, then another bigger thing comes and I tell myself again 'Now THIS is REALLY impossible' but I have no choice so I do it anyway, until I realize I've been doing impossible things everyday. Of course, with the support of my husband and my company 🤍
Bottomline--It's true, love does make you do impossible things. Kaya natin ito mga Working Mommies!
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