Aw, I totally feel you on this one, I've been there and honestly, a lot of us moms have that guilt, pero the reality is your kids benefit SO much from having a mom who's fulfilled at work too, kaya don't be so hard on yourself. The important thing is the quality time you spend with them when you're home, and finding childcare you trust so you can focus at work without the worry, one of my mum friends actually said her kids became more independent and confident because she had help, which she didn't expect. What matters most is you're showing your kids that moms can work, pursue goals, AND still love them fiercely; that's the best care you can give. Hang in there, mama, you're doing so much better than you think.