Aw, mama, I totally understand, yan talaga ang heart-breaking part ng separation, pero you're doing the best for your family. A few of us went through the same situation, and honestly, it helps if you start bottle feeding more consistently now (like every feeding, not just practice) so by the time you leave, your baby's already used to it as normal, hindi special occasion lang; also, try different bottle nipples, sometimes LO just doesn't like the flow or feel, so switching brands might help (Philips Avent at Tommee Tippee were game-changers for my friends' babies). The hardest part really is nighttime, pero once they're on formula, the caregiver can handle feeds without you, it might be tough the first week or two, pero babies adapt faster than we think, lalo na kung consistent ang routine ng babysitter. For real though, talk to your pediatrician about the transition plan, especially if your LO's not drinking enough yet, kasi they can give tips based sa baby's specific needs. You're not a bad mom for doing this, you're being practical and loving.