Hay mamsh, your feelings are so valid and I'm so glad baby's heartbeat came back strong, what a scary moment that must have been, especially with your history. A few of us sa circle namin have rainbow babies din, and honestly, the paranoia is real at every little thing, so don't apologize for it one bit. Your husband crying with you shows how much love is there for this baby, at that's what matters, and now you have medicines to help with the UTI at the dexamethasone para sa baby's development, so you're in good hands. Take it easy moving forward, mamsh, at listen to your body; at 27 weeks you deserve the grace to step back when you need to. Sending you so much strength, you've got this, and baby's doing okay.