Oh mama, ang laki ng burden na dala mo right now. First thing, please reach out to your OB and the hospital social worker talaga, kasi may financial assistance programs na available for cases like baby Athena's, and they can guide you on options na hindi mo alam.
What you're feeling, that mix of heartbreak, fear, at guilt, ay sobrang normal, and you're not alone in this, ha. A few of us moms have walked through similar valleys, and the love you're showing baby Athena by wanting her here, even for a short time, ay pure courage na.
For support beyond the hospital, check din with your church, local barangay, or advocacy groups for special needs babies, maraming communities are willing to help families in your situation. And please, kahit gaano kahirap, try to talk to someone, counselor, priest, trusted tita, kasi this grief needs space to breathe.
Baby Athena is blessed na nandito ka para sa kanya. Prayers for your family.