Oh dear, sending you so much warmth right now, please know you are not alone in feeling this way. Someone in my mum group once shared something that really stayed with me: when a husband says he's "tidak sanggup," sometimes what he really means is he's scared of the financial or emotional weight, not that he truly does not want the child, and with gentle, honest conversation over time, many couples find their hearts soften once the baby is actually here. Gugurkan kandungan is a very heavy decision that carries its own grief, and many mothers who have been in similar situations shared that they could never quite make peace with that choice, so please do not rush yourself. Most importantly, do speak with your doctor or a counsellor together with your husband, because a professional can help both of you work through this in a safe and supported way.
Anonymous